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[06 Feb 2008|03:01pm]
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[23 Feb 2007|10:36am]

What Video Game Character Are You? I am a Gauntlet Adventurer.I am a Gauntlet Adventurer.

I strive to improve my living conditions by hoarding gold, food, and sometimes keys and potions. I love adventure, fighting, and particularly winning - especially when there's a prize at stake. I occasionally get lost inside buildings and can't find the exit. I need food badly. What Video Game Character Are You?

You Are Batman

Billionaire playboy by day. Saving the world by night.
And you're not even a true superhero. Just someone with a lot of expensive toys!

Your Pirate Name Is...

Evil Neck Snapper Nellie

Your Pirate Name Is...

Iron Sweet Waters

Your Pirate Name Is...

Captain Master of Horror

Your Pirate Name Is...

Surgeon Henriques the Englishman

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[18 Jan 2007|11:26am]
Wow. It's been a year. Does anyone even read this thing anymore? Doubtful. Oh well. Quizzes are fun anyways.

Which Classic Story Role Do You Play?

- You Are The Outlaw
"Sure, I'll do it. My way."

Just because you do not conform to the same laws and rules as everyone else does not mean that you are a bad guy. You travel your own path, separate from those around you, with your own reasons for doing what you do. Because of this and your own nature, it goes without saying that you are generally misunderstood. That does not matter much, though, as people love you for being who you are. You are pretty well set in your ways and have no real intention of changing. This can come across as a flicker of arrogance if your not careful. You do what is right for you, and God help anyone who stands in your way.
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What Bleach Character Are You?

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Guess I'll be getting a lot of bedroom action in the future! [06 Dec 2005|10:16pm]

Pick One
Pick A Movie
Pick A Beverage
Gayness - 60%
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Your Years at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry
Family Line
Dated Draco Malfoy
You are well known for Blowing up the Potions classroom in 4th Year
Percentage of student body you shagged - 51%
How do the staff and students feel about you Ahhh!! I want to have your babies!!
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Your Death
Current Mood
Pick a Color
How You Will Die: Too much sex
How Long People Will Remember You: 4 years
When You Will Die: when you're 101 (nice!)
Where You Will Die: in Washington
Your Last Words Will Be: something Latin
This Percentage of People That Knew You Actually Liked You: - 98%
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Which Mysterious Death will be Yours?
Favorite Color
Usual Hangout
Favorite Food
You will die while having sex.
Who will find your body? A pack of rabid, hungry rats.
You will be wearing spiked-heel pumps, fishnet thigh-highs, a vinyl skirt and a tight red corset. (not sure *I* want to know...)
And the Mysterious Cause... asphyxiation.
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Wow. That's so true. [06 Dec 2005|09:59pm]

Minx Exchanging Lustful Indulgence and Sensual, Slow Affection
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bored [13 Nov 2005|08:03pm]
depressed girl
You are the depressed/dreamer anime girl.You either
lost somebody you love or somebody broke you
heart so bad that you can't pick up the
shattered pieces without hurting yourself.You
think nobody can heal your wounds but don't
stop looking because you never know who loves
you enough to try hell the one special guy
could be right infront of your eyes and you
don't even know it.You also love to day dream
because it seems like the only place that makes
you happy.But little do you know that people
all around you are trying to make you happy and
you won't let them in fearing you'll get
another heartbreak or get hurt worse.But just
try and if things go wrong just brush it off
and try again.It never hurts to try.One more
thing never let that lost love one leave you
heart keep them in forever and keep their
memory alive.

If You Were An Anime Character What Would You Look Like?(Girls Only)
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That's not really true but at least the picture's pretty

My inner child is one year old today

My inner child is one year old!

Everything is new to me. I like watching the world
go by around me, and I don't sweat the small
stuff--or the large stuff, either. Just so long
as I stay warm and safe and dry, life's pretty

How Old is Your Inner Child?
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Yaaay. I'm so mature.

You are Cypher-
You are Cypher, from "The Matrix."
Selfish, disllusioned, you are misguided at
times. You deviate from the "right"

What Matrix Persona Are You?
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You are DORY!
Which Finding Nemo Character Are You?

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Revenge! That's why you would kill someone! If a
cruel person did something horrible to someone
you loved, you would hunt him down. You would
not let anyone abuse you or someone you know.
You fight. Your belief is probably that revenge
won't bring anyone back, but that's not what
you're trying to do. You want to see that
horrible person suffer and get punished for
what he/she did.

WHY Would You KILL Someone?
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[03 Nov 2005|08:46pm]
You are a neurotransmitter. You believe in the
good-naturedness of man's biology and soul.
You're happy, everyone's happy, and no one will
ever take that away from you. Or else you'll
make them go insane.

Which Biological Molecule Are You?
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[03 Nov 2005|07:55pm]
Alice Result

Which DISNEY character are you most like?
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I am The Sisko!! [02 Nov 2005|03:21am]
sisko wallpaper
You are Captain Sisko!
You are an extremely intelligent person gifted in
verbal and non verbal communication. You are a
little flaky however and Starfleet probably put
you in the ass-end of space for a reason. You
like the fact the Bajorans look up to you as a
God, and that quite frankly is scary. Religion
and Starfleet do not mix. I know Wolf 359 was
tough, but you have to be tougher than that to
end up as one of the truly great Captains.

Which Starfleet Captain Are You?
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Oh my GOD [15 Oct 2005|03:04pm]

What Is Your Battle Cry?

Rampaging across the steppes, cutting down all who dare stand in the way using a thorned whip, cometh Melissa! And she gives a spectacular roar:

"I'm going to pulverize you until you're a parapalegic, and add a notch to my bedpost!!"

Find out!
Enter username:
Are you a girl, or a guy ?

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What Is Your Battle Cry?

Stalking on the tarmac, wielding a jeweled meat hammer, cometh Pang! And she gives a low roar:

"You in some shit now, muhfuh! You are made of meat and I am very hungry!"

Find out!
Enter username:
Are you a girl, or a guy ?

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If you were on a battlefield right now, versus everything...
Lover or a Fighter? 
Fight for good or evil? 
Battle Cry 
Weapon of Choice Splitting Axe
Appearance Medieval Armour, sneaking in on foot without being seen
Your Battle Cry... Incites laughter
Foes slain upon first strike: - 90%
What you fight Invading Countries
You fight.... For the one you love
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Seldom will you see me boast [11 Oct 2005|09:01am]
Na ha ha ha!

I finally have my drawings up on Deviantart!!! Remember my UBC anime club entries? Well, I went one step further and created a killer assassin girl group from one of my winning entries! And they look cooooool. . I even made up names, occupations, and biographies! there's even a ROMANTIC relationship...OOooooooooh
Damn I'm good. Ha ha ha

So to the miniscule number of people (or person?) who are (is) reading this:

GO LOOK AT MY PRETTY GIRLS!!!......pweeeeeeese?

I'm such a silly head. I was woken up by staffing at 0830. No wonder why I'm nuts and bothering to update at this time of day.

And I got an e-mail from a certain someone I wouldn't have expected to get an e-mail from. I have no idea what *that* could be about. I'm feeling a mixture of fear, dread, anticipation, and anxiety. I've just created more stress for myself.
See what happens when you mass e-mail and don't bother to look at who you're sending to? Should have updated my address book. Ahh crap it.

So my dear children, let this be a lesson to you. Never send mass e-mails, and if you do, always look at who you're sending to.
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[09 Oct 2005|09:45pm]
Seen on a t-shirt:

Picture of a man (like the ones you see on washroom doors) but the circle that represents the head is missing.

Written underneath:
"Got head?"

*lol*.....yeah...Got head anyone? Hahahaha

No really, got any?

'Cause I sure as hell need some goddammit
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Inappropriate outbursts [09 Oct 2005|05:45am]

I have a father figure complex. I want someone who'll take care of me, dote on me, even baby me. I want a man to do things like pull me onto his lap, cuddle me and whisper "Everything's going to be alright, I've got you now and I'll never let you go. You'll always be my girl."

Well, okay I am. A big giant perverted freak.




Who's a pretty girl?
I am! I am! Me and my pretty curly curls!! *SQUEAL*

(high pitched laugh) *Ahahahahah*
I'm going to stop now
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Oh look. It's not a deadjournal...not yet anyway. [17 Sep 2005|12:59pm]
Call me the curl gurl. A trip downtown to my wonderful hairdresser, $177 later and I went from drab to fab in .... an hour and a half. Unfortunately, strong hair is a double edged sword. Only a month later and the perm was relaxed WAY too much. Now I'm stuck with that magic wand known as a curling iron until I can go back again in December.

Queer as Folk is finally over. It's the end of an era. It brought Ryan, me and Shan together. We grew up with them. The fags, twinks and dykes. We laughed with them, we cried with them, we screamed and gasped. And Brian finally said "I love you". I wonder if the neighbours heard us squealing... I'll miss them. I think I identified with each one at some point or another and I admired a few select ones for their hidden strength and human weakness. For some reason I identified with the turbulence, trials, and emotions of Lindsay's and Mel's relationship than any of the boys'. I guess because they're the fairy tale couple that belonged together. I was really sad when they divorced and I saw myself in Lindsay when she was hurting and pining for Mel all the while pretending everything was normal, she was getting on with her life, that she didn't mind that Mel was seeing another woman. *Flashback of my life anyone?* Lindsay I really liked. If I was a lesbian, she'd be the one. I think Ryan was more sad than I, but we'll always have each other. The trio unbroken. And maybe QAF reruns if he ever buys the DVDs.

I'm working full-time now. It's much more tiring and I'm making more mistakes which makes me feel bad. Even worse my boss talked to me about one of them. She was nice and it happens to everyone but still. I feel like a bad nurse. I know what the problem is: fatigue. That can be fixed no problems.

I get pangs of loneliness now and then. Not for a certain anyone, just to have someone to be my only one. But someone does pop into my head just because he was the only who was able to give me what I wanted. It's fantasy. It's not real, so it's okay. If it was real, would I have the self restraint? I don't know, and I think that's why as much as I crave intimacy and touch, as nice as it would be, I would hate it for things to turn real. I may not be able to say No. From then on it would be a slippery slope. It makes me discontent that I don't have that unyielding self-resolve that I admire in others. I've created the perfect man and the perfect story with as yet, no ending. Of course that doesn't help. I want a man. No more boys. I think I have a father figure complex. I'd like someone and it's sometimes all I can stand to listen to Shannon gab on and on about her new 'friend'. I want what I can never have and I think that hurts the most. Probably why I shove that thought deep down. I'd rather have Mr. Right than Mr. Right Now, but the waiting game still sucks. I wonder that maybe the reason I fantasize so much is because I'm so deeply unhappy with my life that I can't acknowledge it and I deny it. Life's alright, but maybe that's not true and I'm really not happy deep down and I just don't know it.

I was thinking of all the sweet things I'd do for my man when I got one. Bake him a cake, among other things. Ryan's been treating us girls to chocolate fondue and cakes because he wants to show us that we're his best friends and he knows we'll be there when the boyfriends come and go. I thought, why do I have to wait for a man to do something special? The reason I would do those things is because I love him. Don't I love my friends? Shouldn't they be the ones I love first, and then a boyfriend? That's how it should be, it's what I've always stood by. So I baked a 4 layer black forest cake with whipped cream frosting and coconut sprinkles. The cake was a bit dense and dry. I was rather disappointed with the result, but cakes are difficult and Ryan and Shannon both liked it. To the trio. To the girls. The one's who will always be there for me, for each other.

I've renewed my interest in Gambit. I'm a sucker for a pretty face and a hot accent. And that got me thinking. And searching. It's amazing how many Logan/Remy fics there are. I'm not addicted to the internet. I'm just addicted to graphic sexual content. I think I've discovered a new fetish. Creed Cascade and TJ, I don't know how I can ever spank you enough.

For the next anime evolution, I'm cosplaying for sure. Nel Zelpher from Star Ocean http://www.rpgfan.com/pics/so3/art-009.jpg or Kiki from Kiki's delivery service. I'd rather do Nel, but Kiki's simpler. Me and Ryan may go as a pair: the hero and heroine from legend of mana (first pic) or Elazul and Pearl (2nd and 3rd pics)http://www.rpgfan.com/pics/seiken4/art.html . Pearl's cute, but if he's Elazul people might mistaken us for dates. That would be wrong. Just wrong. I could be the teacher from Onegai teacher. Definitely easy, I've even got the skirt, shirt, and glasses already.

jlist.com is dangerous. It's renewed my interest in yaoi manga and now I'm scouring and doing my research. A couple issues of Men's Love Ism, Be Boy Gold (both thick tomes of short stories), and some manga by my favourite authors are probably going to come of this research. Thank God for Iwase books.
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Seen on a T-shirt: No one knows I'm gay [13 Aug 2005|04:46pm]
I am 43% gay! Woohoo!!!......?

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As copied from an e-mail I sent to a friend, but slightly modified [05 Sep 2004|04:46am]
Because it's 0445 on a Sunday morning during my night shift and I'm tired.

My Vancouver island vacation was not a long one, just 2 days and one night. We went to victoria, nanaimo, ucluelet, and tofino. The Mysteries of Egypt display at the royal BC museum was awesome. it took aobut 2.5 hours to go through it all and my back was starting to get tired because of all that standing, but it was definitely worth it. It was also partly guided by audio - certain displays had a number which you punch into your handheld radio thingy and John Rhys-davies (who has the coolest voice) tells you about the statue/jewellry/carving/scroll/etc. It was so neat seeing the giant sandstone carvings and how the scribes practiced their craft and transferred rought work onto the finished product (they painted a grid on the rough copy and a grid on the good copy and copied the picture over) In nanaimo, we ate at this dinky little restaurant called Friends. We didn't want to eat somewhere we could eat at home, so mom asked the motel proprieter where he ate. It was like eating in someone's living room complete with couches and TV tables to eat on (they were from the 80s era and the decor looked like it was from a garage sale). It looks not so inviting, but man is it worth it to eat there. the menu was like a small tome, there was so much information (about the owner, how the place operates, about the dishes). The dishes were from everywhere imaginable, but mostly Egyptian, Mediterranean, and continental. You could eat exotic things like sheep/lamb brain (I wanted to try it but didn't want to waste money if I didn't like it), rattlesnake, moose, ox testicles (didn't care to try that one), and such things. The food there was really homestyle - authentic middle east cooking. It was SO GOOD. [turns out I wouldn't have liked the brains. i had cow lung for dinner and my mom told me it was similar in texture to brain. I didn't take to the lungs too much - they're kind of soft and I like texture in my food]. In Ucuelet, we went to a cute little restaurant by the Government Wharf and their special was crab. All around the place were crab shells with messages written on them by the diners. One written by a kid said "HA HA I 8 U AND LIKED IT" That was cute. We went there to see if we could find my mom's friend's husband who was fishing up there, but we didn't see his boat. I did see a boat that was painted a deep red and was christened "Blood Vessel" (It took me a minute to get that one - I was pretty tired). We visited Long Beach and that was fantastic. It was cold but the view was incredible! So naturally, we took lots of pictures =) We drove through Tofino (nothing there) and then caught the last ferry home. It turns out some of the pictures we took look really great! I took one of the waves in the sunshine and these 2 surfers walking by in the distance. It looks really artsy.

I also just got my ear pierced, so now I have another hole in my right ear. My left ear still has the one, though. Only problem is, it was pierced with a stud and the backing digs into me when I sleep so I have to put a bandaid behind my ear every night. As soon as I can, I'm going to switch it to a hoop. Too bad I have to wait 6 weeks

I'll be finishing up a set of 2 days 2 nights on Labour day and after that I have about 10 days off so that'll be nice. I'm a little disappointed i'm can't work a day on labour day because we usually get double time on holidays but on certain holidays (ie. Labour day, Xmas) we get Super STAT, which is 2.5 time (double time and a half I guess you'd call it). At least I'm working Sunday night, so from 12 am to 0730, i get my super STAT pay =D.

I finished the Tarot meanings to my Sakura cards, which makes me happy. I've also posted in a couple other LJs about it and lots of people want to see it, which makes me even happier. It makes me feel good to share something that I put so much work into.

I've been e-mailing with my best friend's brother. I never knew him very well when we were younger, but now it turns out he's an anime freak. he was at Anime Evolution doing a cel presentation cosplaying as Scar from Full Metal Alchemist (he had silvery hair), if any of you people went to AE you might have seen him. It looks like we'll be getting together for the first time this coming week to trade anime. His Hellsing and Azumanga Daioh for my CCS if he wants it. It could be wierd since we've never actually had a conversation face to face, but we'll see.

I'm not so dissatisfied with life anymore. Good things come with time and writing it out helped me get over myself. I still would like a man, but I hardly think any guy my age that I could meet is up to that calibre.
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[05 Sep 2004|02:11am]
My shoes have shoes!
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On the flip side... [21 Aug 2004|02:26pm]
I don't know what's been wrong with me for the past few days.

I've been feeling unaccomplished and like my life lacks passion.

Granted, I have been doing some things I'm not proud of and am only willing to admit to one person. Even then, I don't talk to that person about it all that much. I know what I should be doing, but I find I can't.

I feel like my life right now lacks excitement and any real joy. I go about my daily activities with no exceptional feelings. I do get a sense of satisfaction when I redecorate my room, put away old models and bring out ones I haven't displayed in awhile, switch this old photo for that one, but overall, none of it really excites me. I go to work and yes, I do like my co-workers, but work doesn't make me feel like i'm really doing anything worthwhile. The feeling it gives me is neither poor nor excellent, just satisfactory.

In the middle. All of it. There are no extremes, there is no fire no excitement. Run-of-the-mill, middle of the road, not here nor there, you know what I mean.

"So do you like nursing?" "How do you like it so far?" "Do you enjoy work?"
I can't even fake a "Yeah! It's great! I love it."
Shrug, lop-sided smile, "Yeah, it's good" "I like it because there's always something new" "It keeps me busy"

Nursing's all well and good for now, but it's not something I'm passionate about. It's just a job, but I feel like I want something more. Maybe it is the wrong profession for me. Would I be happier doing something different? Maybe. But would I still be satisfied if I made less money? Probably not.

Go to work, go home, go out on my days off, repeat. And for what? To make and save money for my future? But what about the in between, the now?

I have no social circle to speak of. They've all got their own and I think I'm outside.

I do think that the one thing that might afford me some passion in my life would be a boyfriend. I have memories of looking forward to things, my heart beating just a little faster in anticipation, planning what fun things we could do next. At least that lit a fire in me.

And what about the future?

What happens for the one who in high school who inwardly scoffed at her friends for pining over boys and now? Proof the Fate does indeed have a cruel sense of humour.

How am I ever supposed to meet anyone given what my life is and what I do? I suppose like all things "It'll happen when you least expect it" "You'll find what you're looking for when you're not looking"

Of course, it's not like I'm desperate for someone. I just want to share the rest of my life with someone I love. Is that too much to ask? I guess so.

But as things stand right now, my prospects look depressing, if not dismal. And that strikes a fear in me that is only matched by my greatest fear: failure.

I do pride myself on being as masculine as I am feminine and I'm glad that i'm an even mix of both. And yet, as much as I like upsetting convention, on the inside there's a large, overbearing part of me that's locked away, a secret, if you will.
DINK, white picket fences, damsel-in-distress complex, knight-in-shining-armour, domestic bliss, pleasing someone, "Welcome home honey, how was your day? *kiss* Dinner's all ready - I made your favourite. Tired? Why don't you lay down and I'll set the table and after dinner how about a massage?", "I love you."

I read stories in the paper about married couples and how they met, how long they've stayed together, how wonderful it's been for all these years. I want that for myself, as i'm sure many do. I placate myself with "I'm sure that will happen. You've got years and years ahead, it must happen. How can it not?

How indeed.
Then I get so scared I only get halfway through the answer.

Commence Standard Stress Response
Temporary Shutdown
Searching for alternate topic under category: Non-Threatening
Recommencing normal function

What's for dinner?
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[21 Aug 2004|02:13pm]
Anyone been to the Richmond night market? I've gone twice so far and actually managed to buy some stuff, much to my surprise. In total, I've bought a pair of mashi maro pj's ($10), poster ($2), 2 notebooks ($1), and a cream puffy nylon jacket ($10). It's too bad i'm not in school anymore because there's so many cute pencil cases and binders i want to buy but don't need =(.
The second time I went, I went with my mom and dad (Shan didn't want to go), and me and mom ate dinner there: curry fish balls ($2), tako- and scallopyaki ($4), malaysian bread filled w/ taro ($3), and two each of goldfish cookies filled w/ red bean paste ($1). I liked the goldfish the best =D.

My family and I are going to go to Vancouver island this coming Wed-Thur/Fri!! I don't think it'll be terribly exciting, but just getting away from everything will be nice and spending time as a family will be even nicer.
I'm having a hard time finding the motivation to finish my drawing of my girl group, which is depressing. There's so many distractions that I don't get around to finishing it. Oh well I guess I'll find time sometime.

Anyone watch The First 48 on A&E? It's a reality show where they follow cops and detectives for the first 48hrs after a crime and show how they do their investigation. It's really neat.
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[08 Aug 2004|04:32am]
Oh yes, and I also hurt my back about 3 weeks ago. Of all places, it was at home. I was bending down to pick up a plate from the floor and my lower back spasmed. That hurt. A lot. So my mom's been giving me massages and i've been putting a hot compress on my back whenever it starts nagging at me. We bought one of those gel Hot/Cold packs and they work so much better than a hot towel. I wish we'd bought one before. I also bought myself a back support. It's like a waistband with adjustable elastics that you can pull tighter once you get the waistband velcroed on. It cost $67. But if I need it I need it. I find it oddly amusing every time I need to use the bathroom because I need to undo the support. There's this very loud sound of ripping velcro that I'm sure everyone outside can hear and is wondering what the hell it is i'm doing in there.
My back's slowly getting better. If it doesn't improve too much i'll have to see my GP and get a referral to a physio so he/she can show me some exercises to strengthen my back. it costs $10 a session, so i hope i don't have to go back too many times. $10 isn't much but it's kind of a waste if all the physio is going to do is teach me exercises.
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